When It's Cruel to be Kind
A Different Kind of Love Story
My life as a cuckold
by Tina
submissive cuckold Tina
Although I am called Tina, and I am forced to live life as a woman, I was born a man, I have a penis, and I am completely heterosexual (I enjoy sex with women only although I am often forced to have sex with men to amuse and make money for my Mistress).
I am a cuckold. The definition of the word cuckold has evolved over the years. In my case it means that my wife, now know as Divine Mistress Angelique, can have sex with anyone she chooses, when and where she chooses. The only stipulation is that she must always tell me, and I am sometimes permitted (or forced, I'm not always sure which) to watch.
I am only allowed to cum with Mistress' permission, almost always by means of masturbation with my hand or vibrator, and I am always forced to wear a condom and swallow my cum in what has become a ritualistic manner (she slides the cum filled condom over my tongue and I must wear it until she commands me to swallow it).
My penis is locked in a male chastity device during the day, and I am restrained while I sleep, to ensure that I cannot cum without Mistress' permission. I am completely subservient to her and her primary lover, our "bull" Derek, although Mistress' wishes always supersede Sir's orders. I serve as her indentured servant, chattel and dungeon gimp.
For the first few months I was allowed to cum almost every time I watched her and Derek make love, but at that time Derek was in charge, and we both had to prove that we were serious about wanting him to be our "bull."
The most important thing you need to know about me, the one thing that has had the biggest influence on my life, the thing that brought me to be a cuckold, the thing that makes me different from almost every man on earth is that I have a very small penis. My best erection is exactly 3” long, and 1” in diameter. When flaccid I am 3/4” in diameter, and no longer than 1”, often less. Consequently my wife has never had an orgasm while fucking me. Derek is British, black, bisexual and hung like a pornstar, which he was for a year or so. He is a very refined, very alpha, male. He dominates other men with his wits not his brawn.
In my role as her servant I am usually dressed similarly to the following photo. I want to stress that this is not me, but a photoshopped representation of how I am normally dressed for my duties as Mistress' maid and dungeon gimp, including short skirt to expose my tiny penis in a locked chastity device. When my forced feminization reached the point where I began taking female hormones I was named Tina, which is a play on the nickname "Tiny" which was given me by Derek.
I have no money or property of my own other than $100,000.00 in a trust account, which I will receive should I ever choose to leave Mistress, or fail to obey her. Under the terms of our agreement I will be given a "no fault" divorce, and I will never be allowed to see Mistress again, except for legal obligations. Our pre-nup stipulates that I will receive no more than the $100,000 settlement plus any interest accrued.
So why do I allow myself to be treated like this? Hopefully this blog will answer all your questions. Remember the old adage: Be careful what you wish for, you just might get it? Well this is what I wanted. For years I begged her to dress like a dominatrix and control me sexually; I got it in my head that the only way I would ever be sexually satisfied would be to watch her being satisfied by another man. But I just wanted to play out a sexual fantasy; I didn't know it would end up being 24/7, 365 days a year!
We've been friends since childhood. I love her and I don't want to lose her. I told her I would do anything for her if she would just fulfill my fantasies; now I have to put up or shut up. Plus she is a beautiful person with a smokin' hot body (38DD, 26" waist (20" to 22" in a corset) and 36" hips, just shy of 6' in her bare feet, and very well developed muscles in her shoulders and arms--she grew up on a farm). And I will always be an introverted beta male with a teenie tiny pee-pee. Even if I fell in love with another woman I wouldn't be able to satisfy her either!
But why do I stay even though I have no hope of ever being sexually satisfied by her. Why do I allow her to strip me of all vestiges of dignity and masculinity? As she likes to say, "I can find any number of men who are willing to fuck me, but how many men would be willing to give me what they value most: their orgasms and their manhood? I am giving this opportunity only to you. You can prove your love to me on a daily basis by celebrating my sexual satisfaction in the arms of another without the slightest hope of any prid pro quo."
"My sexual satisfaction will become your only source of sexual stimulaiton. My happiness will become your happiness. You will learn that only your complete surrender and unwavering obedience to me give your life purpose."
"It is possible that in time, with the proper training, as you watch me in the throes of ecstacy, you will learn not to envy the man or woman I am with, but by sharing in my joy you will have a harmonic response in which my orgasm vicariously becomes your orgasm and my orgasm will trigger a very real orgasm in you."
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When it’s Kind to Be Cruel
A Different Kind of Love Story
A Different Kind of Love Story
My life as a Cuckoldress, Professional Dominatrix and all around whore
by Divine Mistress Angelique
Divine Mistress Angelique
We are a real life 24/7 cuckolding couple. I am Mistress Angelique (neither my real nor professional name). I have many lovers, but I am in only one committed relationship. That relationship is with my cuckold Tina, who was my husband of nearly ten years prior to becoming my cuck, and our "bull" Derek. Derek and I are lovers, and we are allowed to have sex with anyone we wish. Jamie is only allowed to have orgasms with my permission. They are almost always by means of masturbation, and he is always required to wear a rubber, and swallow his cum.
I work as a professional dominatrix and occasionally as a submissive to some of my trusted clients. I own my own dungeon, which is part of my home. It is a private club, open only to members. Some of my clients are very wealthy, very powerful, and/or very famous. Discretion is 99% of my business. The rich and powerful handle everything through their lawyers, even parking tickets; they just can’t afford fuck-ups. Therefore it is imperitive that we keep our identities secret, as well as the identities of our clients.
Which brings us to the disclaimer:
Anything written here or elsewhere, published by printed page, electronic means, voice recording, or any other method available today or in the future, by either Mistress Angelique, cuckold Tina or bull Derek, should be considered a work of fiction.
Although based on our real life experiences, certain particulars have been altered or left out entirely. Some events have been embellished, and some events have been understated. All characters are fictionalized composites of the many people we have met, worked with and played with, and should not be considered to be representations of any specific person, living or dead.
(Please note: Mistress Angelique, Mistress Dominique, Derek & Tina are the only real characters in our narrative. This is their story. Their names and all other revelatory details about them have been changed or obscured to protect them as well as all others involved.)
None of the techniques we describe, whether corporal punishment, humiliation, bondage or sexual acts, should be tried unless you are certain you have the experience and common sense to perform them properly. I am a professional Dominatrix who has been trained by a woman with over 30 years of experience. I trained for 3 months as a professional submissive, 3 months as a switch, and 6 months as a Dominatrix before working on my own; during this time I was also practicing bondage and descipline techniques with Tina as a regular part of our relationship.
Learn how much is enough, and how much is too little. Never exceed your capabilities or your submissive's tolerances. Never administer punishment or humiliation when you are out of control: angry, intoxicated,etc. Learn the limits of your partner. Use each session to bring your partner to his or her limit, and then push them a little beyond. Your submissive's pain, discomfort and humiliation should be more than he or she can endure, but not so much that they will not submit to you again.
In the early stages of training you may have to provide your sub with suitable rewards to keep them in a state where they are willingly to submit to true pain and sexual humiliation for you. You might allow them to masturbate for you, or if you are a generous person you might give them a vibrator of hand job. I would suggest you withold all oral and vaginal sex until they have consistently demonstrated 100% devotion to you, and even then it should be the most special of rewards. In a month you will see a difference; in a year you will both be quite different people.
For our third cuckolding anniversary I allowed my husband/cuckold to thrust is tiny tool into my vagina five times. This was after I had fucked Derek and my pussy was stretched and filled with gooey semen. There was minimal friction between his wee-wee and my vulva.
"Can you see now that my vagina is as useless to your cock as your cock is to my vagina? You might as well be fucking a bowl of wet Wonder bread!"
